Mum can never stop to be a mum. I am P S. I am a cancer patient and a mum of two children. Nothing special there, right? But no, everything is special about a situation when the word mum pops up. I am struggling with my diagnosis from a long time now. Ever since my diagnosis was stage 2b till now when I have crossed any stages in doctors’ books, there has been one thought in my mind. One solo thought. My children. I have people who come to visit, advised me to be positive, live in the moment. Be selfish and do what YOU like. All these are cliches. Never say anything like that to a cancer mum. I just want to say that motherhood is different for everyone. For me it was my identity. I am a mum first, a person later. All these years it has been like this. I never had a choice ever to think otherwise. I never got a chance to enjoy marital bliss. I stepped into chaos when I entered my married life. It was like Quick sand the more you struggle to get out, the deeper you will be. If you remember, I mentioned in one of my blogs that I had to go live at my mum’s house to seek second opinion about my treatment. I was going through huge side effects of the trial drugs. I was not eating not drinking. My kids came to see me. Little one gave me the tightest hug and did not let go of me. My older one was shocked to see me like this. His eyes were wide with disbelief, he said, “What happened ma? Look at you.” I know he meant you are mum, you can’t get that sick. You need to be there for us. We can never fathom the depth of sorrows in kids’ hearts when they see their superhuman mum or dad sick. It has nothing to do with if the kids know the truth about your sickness, your current situation. For them, you are someone to fall back on. My story is no different from any other mum going through terminal illness. My story is just as special as yours as any other mum’s. Mum’s can read the soul of their children. I read mines’.
My Life journey with cancer
Love
Life is beautiful when you love someone else more than yourself. Life is more beautiful when you have more than one person to love and life is a dream when you are loved. I am grateful, I am loved, I love. I am a mum.
life journey with cancer 